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Free Fall

I have never been someone to seize the day and spontaneously decide to do something. I’m someone who likes routine, who needs control, and who takes herself way too seriously. The paradox of my traits is that I am a dreamer; someone who imagines herself leaving her work in the middle of the day to…

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Emerging from a suicidal mindset to a life of hope

Since the death of Robin Williams I’ve been thinking a lot about suicide. Not attempting, but my own experiences with suicide. A large part of my testimony involves being terribly sad and secretly suicidal. But I tend to brush over it because I have a lot of pride in that area, and talking about it makes me feel…

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Still.

“Still?” He replied with the look of absolute appalled confusion on his face. “Yeah.” I said. ” Almost everyday. Almost every hour. It sucks.” “Oh…” was all he could say in that moment. That moment of clarity, that moment of confusion, that moment of discomfort as he stared out the front window of a Chipotle restaurant…

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Life

I have lost hope over and over again in life. If it’s with my dreams, a relationship, my career, or in life itself. We all have these moments in life when we don’t see how it’s all going to turn out, and it sucks when you’re in that moment. Hope is simply to cherish a…

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Ripples

On January 31st, 2014, at around 7 in the morning, my father died from a valiant battle with non hodgkin’s lymphoma. I was by his side, holding onto his hand and burying my face into his thigh. I know I screamed and begged, and I know I couldn’t breathe as the web of tears soaked…

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My Fear, My Struggle, My Problem, My Hope

I am going to break the blogging fourth wall and be completely, unabashedly honest for the few minutes it will take for you to read this. I am not about to censor myself for the sake of people whom I know may not in the past, currently, or ever in the future be in my position. I…